Reflections at the Autumn Equinox

This is a time of balance.   We balance that which brings us pain with that which brings us joy.   Keep in mind that the Earth only experienced balance two days a year at the Autumn and Spring Equinox.   We can't expect perfection in our balance.   We hover or float near the empowering and happy or challenging and stressful.   I wish to reflect to you that there is much stress in the community about the lack of balance.    Our greatest challenge is to recognize that failure,  mistakes,  and sometimes the why didn't we see that coming are all part of what moves us along our path.    Sometimes, through our own actions or inactions we have to f@#k something up beyond all chance of repair so that we can recognize where we truly are standing.   Once we have dusted off and determined where we are we then show up to our tribe.   Your tribe are the people who accept you for what you are,  where you are with compassion.   It's possible you walk among multiple tribes.  You are a part of a blood family,  a chosen family,  a religious family,  a work family,  a hobby family etc.  You belong in each of these houses.   Your home, your spirit family are the ones from each of these houses that hold a special place in your heart.   Remind your tribe they have a place at your home during troubled times.   I'm not suggesting that we take on each other's work just reminding that it is important to say I accept you in your broken,  troubled,  and confused space during troubled times.  It's okay to hold someone's hand as you travel along your Path.

Copyright September 2018

Rising During Descent

I've discovered that being a Priestess when the Goddesses of Discord and Chaos dance isn't for the faint of heart.   We support others during their time in crisis.    When the day comes that you realize every skill that you have artfully mastered is an ineffective tool in your war chest and always will be how do you continue?

I'm entering a portion of my Path that is overgrown with the razor sharp thorns of dementia.   This area of my Path can't be shaped up with pruning shears and a string trimmer.   I will make this journey with one I love.   I have to find a way to hold a hand that I will never want to let go as it gradually slips away. There is no other choice.

How does this coping thing work?  Do I let others know the available light for us is waning?  Will my attempts to keep my charge in the best possible place put others in the worst possible place for them?  Does she feel the love and comfort I send?  How do I know if my decisions are what is best?  How do I keep the light shining even though it can't be seen?  How do I share the descent with others and not cause them pain?  How do I know when it's time to step back and say I must rest for now so others can add their footprints to the Path?  Will others who have walked this Path be brought back to darkness if I seek their guidance and wisdom? 

I have no answers but I do have Sisters who have walked this Path,  Sisters who are walking this Path and those I love that I desperately want to protect from the pain.    It's going to take the whole community to help me through this one.  This area of my Path is so foreign to me.    I'm not familiar with being the one who needs help.  I'm one of the community who provides the help.    I am blessed with a support system that has always been a source of love,  support,  and compassion for so many.     During my journey on this Path one of the lessons I must learn is how to receive so that I can continue to give.

Tonight as Florida is in the grips of an ecological crisis,  California is in flames, Americans are looking for reasons to hate other Americans because "they" aren't "us" so surely they must be an enemy,  and appearance is valued above genuine my prayer is that my Mother will always feel and recognize the love and admiration we all have for her.

Goddess Bless!

I'm Baaaack!!!!

So after a lengthy pause in my writing I have decided to put fingers to the keyboard and step out of the shadows and back onto the public Path.     Don't interpret shadows as a bad place for me because I have strong nocturnal leanings.    I was reminded yesterday about the importance of making an influence on just one person for the better.     An important part of the Dianic Tradition is that we learn from each other.   I'm not claiming to be a source of infallible knowledge.    I will probably misstep my entire way back into the arms of the Goddess but that's okay because we are on this journey together and we are going to have a good time!   It's good to re-emerge stronger,  wiser,  and refocused.    May my musings inspire you or at least give you something to smile at as the journey continues.....